Monday, March 31, 2008
I'm all grins for history marks.Weee!
I'm proud of my fellow classmates too!
You did well Angus, but I know you're capable of more(;
I'm more motivated to do better know that I've gained confidence it my subjects!
I want to but I can't.I think. Chee Sern!!Your offer is soooo tempting. Give me time leh. I NEED to think through properly.
I got my hair cut. Weee! Sadly, everyone don't notice my haircut. Our conversation;
Me: Eh Ferrero, my curls are gone. Sobs.
Nurul:You did something to your hair?(With that 'HUHH?You serious?' kinda look)
Me:Ya duh. Alllllaaaaaa,not obvious meh?
Nurul:Err,really, you did something to your hair?
I ended off the conversation with multiple squints.
NEvermind, I don't need people to notice my hair length and stuff. So long as I feel less volume, I'm fine. I wish it was lean. Oh well, look on the bright side, it's shinier?LOLx
I got my first aprill fool joke in advanced from Zul. Ha Ha Ha Ha. Very funny Zul. VERY funny=.=
So anyway Liverpool won yesterday's match. So did Chelsea and blllleeaaahhh....man u.Booo.
I guess what Kak Ewe said was true...
"It's just a crush,it'll pass."
I'm wishing it'll pass FASTER.
I longed for you to say something but you don't seem like you want to say anything so, thanks anyway for the promising hopes though they were fake.Haha.
Not that I'm disappointed or anything, but at least he gets a tinge of what I mean.
So long peeps.
tiARa
Friday, March 28, 2008
Had you known what I truly felt I doubt you'd think of me that way. Labels: You don't know.
Had you spared a thought for me I don't think this would all get tangled up this horrible.
Did you ever think it was easy to break one's heart.
Did you ever think I didn't do it dileberately.
Couldn't you have seen what I hinted.
Couldn't you have understood why, why I just had to.
Didn't you know that I appriciate every little thing you've done.
Didn't you say you were willing to accept it all.
Have you ever thought of the pressure constantly inclining deep down in me.
Have you ever wondered if I suffered silently.
Never could you tell my smiles were mere fake and not genuine ones.
Never could you tell what I truly felt about the situation.
Is it wrong to have been a little selfish. Haven't I suffered enough. Haven't I sacrificed enough for everyone. All this while, hasn't it been always me who had the heart to sacrifice my true feelings. I don't want to love out of sympathy. I don't want to love out of empathy.
Why won't you understand.
Am I being unreasonably selfish. I want to love too. I want to love fairly. I want to love sincerely as well.
I really hope you do understand the position I'm in..
I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass I'm looking out,
Is this my life I'm wondering It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
There's greener pastures I'm thinking about,
Wide open spaces far away
All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind,
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses
I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bareback, carefree
Along the shore If only that someone was me
Jumping head first, head-long
Without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free
All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear, but not feel scared
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind,
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
Wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses,
I wanna run too
Recklessly abandoning myself before you
I wanna open up my heart
Tell him how I feel
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind,
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses
I wanna run with the wild horses
I want to love recklessly.
Please spare me the pain..please.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
If it's ego that's stopping from being true to myself then should I let it be. Because I'm sparing another heartache I'm bound to suffer from, not anyone else but myself. I would spare myself the embarrassment and disappointment. On the contrary, if I were to confess then at least you'd know how I feel. Then all that's been bottled wouldn't burdern me anymore would it? Labels: Confessions of a broken heart
Life is so complicated. Life.
tiARa
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Too much to say, too little time to shoot. Haha. Now I appriciate Point forms=) All that I have to say about today. Funny!Trouble!Lemon seeds!Tests!It's a zit on my nose peeps, not a piercingHiccups!! Okaay well pics below are taken from either the golf arena or downtown east. I'll post about them some other time. so anw, I don't wana see you. Seriously And Nizam, gosh, don't sabo chee sern like that lah. you're mean seh. If he knows what you sent through his phone you're dead meat man. I Love lOve loVe lovE you querido. (: 
Syakir.
Syakir,again.Haha
Golf. Yeayea I can't play. =.=
Coaster rides. I don't fancy them
Kite Flyer
Pooh Bears.
Bake paint!
Engorossed!
Almost done
and...done!
Sunday, March 23, 2008
I seriously intended to post alot of pictures but it seems like I'm very busy concolling alot of people online so I'll leave it to some other day.
Thank you Nurul. A lot. Loves!
Man U and Liverpool's match today! Not quite as excited for Arsenal and Chelsea's battle. Easier said, least interested.
Gaah, I love Nani, but he's in Man U. Too bad lah. I'm still not supporting Man U at any cause. Okay2. we'll see who has the biggest laugh tomorrow ok Bryan. Hahahahahaha.
tiARa
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Sprots day. Blah blah.
Wasn't happy. Consoled, comforted, understood, forgive-----forget.
After the whole event ended, headed to McD with dearest Nurul Ferrero. Ate ate ate.
Met Nizam and his new "best-freind" Alvin. Hohohoho. Sad la Nizam. Boo hoo.
Got home, still the boredness hadn't vanish. I got hold of Stomp The Yard and Pooof, I was ENTERTAINED. Hahaha. LOVE LOVE LOVE COlombus Short and Megan Good. Not to mention Chris Brown and Ne-Yo. Weee!
So anyway, it gives me the creeps to know that I have so many juniors reading my blog. I have to be more cautious now that I'm aware. Haha. Well, it doesn't harm to have avid readers of your blog(:
grita un río, it's your turn now.
tiARa
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Tomorrow's Sports Day. Hooray.
=.=
So anw, yea yea, I'll be on medic duty not on councillor duty. That means gross bruises and graize and cuts and sprains and strains and etc etc.
Im hoping so bad Nurul and I get our parents' permissions to go watch Step up 2 tmr. We really2 wanna go watch like desperately! Praying hard. ;)
I'm starting on a new novel Yeys! It's a malay novel by the way. Ohh,I'm so motivated to read malay novels now=)
To that biatch who tagged under my name at Bryan's blog, this one's for you.
I don't have your kinda shameless to ask someone if he loves me in a tagboard. Even he does so what. It doesn't concern you at all. Unless you're jealous. Awwwwwhhhhh, boo hoo. how sad Bryan doesn't fancy you. Fish off moron.(:
*If that person happens to be you who I blogged about in my previous post then, GET A LIFE. This ain't the way to take revenge. Oh come on, is this all that you got?
Our newly composed song
with OH SO MUCH love,
Nurul and Tiara's randtion....
Sing to Britney Spears's Piece of Me!
He's MR Lifestyles of the rich and famous
He's MR Oh my god that *****'s shameless
He's MR Extra extra don't fit in
He's MR His toooo big and still too BIG
=)
with much love,
ti
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
I wana make today's post quick. I've got undone homework. The reason why I still insist on blogging it's coz I somehow find it a must to vent everything out. Plus I feel it's the only venue where particular people would receive certain messages which are crucial to be conveyed this minute.
Read at your own risk.
I don't intend to mention names so YOU choose whether to receive my thoughts and opinions.
Honestly, all that has happened today indeed charred you to the extreme personally for me. I dare to say that after what you did today I am filled with regret and remource. I lament solemnly because I onced called you a friend. Not only a friend, a very good friend. I used to think I was so lucky because we were so close. I had your attention and you were willing to share my friendship. You cherished and took care of the friendship though at times it appeared shaky. But after what happened today, I don't think there's room for tolerating. I can't tolerate anymore. I won't endure anymore. Why should I? You gradually changed, I didn't complain. In fact I prayed you changed for the better. I don't think you knew. Then again, I don't think you care. I found it hard to accept your changes however, as someone who cared for you, I wanted the best for you. I guess you don't appriciate me. Well, you can save what you need to say. Save your explaination, save it all coz at the end of the day, you've just disappointed me so much. IT was just too much, what happened today. I'm sorry I can never regard you as a friend any longer. You don't respect me, you never appriciate me.
and if you're wondering..yes,
it's you who used to laugh along with me.
it's you who used to distract me from lessons.
it's you who would tease me often.
it's you who would make fun of people I had infatuation on.
it's the exact same you who I entrust secrets to.
it's none other than you. sadly,
you never were a friend of mine.
tiARa
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Yesterday oh yesterday. Let's go back to yesterday!
Auditions in the morning. It was HILLARIOUS. Seriously...Seriously FUNNY. Hahahax. Extremely amusing I swear. I bet we pissed the judges off. Okay2 so listen I'm mr and miss can crank that move dope judges, ever heard of mix and match outfits? LOLx. Okaay2 I shan't be mean. Nevertheless, point taken*winks* We'll work on something about the whole slippers thing okaays.
We enjoyed ourselves anyway. The whole lot of us. We really did have an enjoyable time! Thanks a million peeps. Though we didn't impress the judges like WOW, we still had a whole lot of fun yea? Loves Loves!
I'm sure Kak Naf and Kak Ames did well coz they were VERY smiley after the auditions. Hahs! Hope you guys make it. Then Kak Izzah and Kak Eweeee can sing along toooo(X
After everything was done and over with, Kak Syaf, Kak Ames, Kak Ews and me headed for lj. Filled our tummies. The atmosphere was very tensed at first but Kak Fays's prediction was spot on! Someone got better halfway through the meal. Hehehehex.
After we filled our meals, we made rounds in Jp. Looked for shoes. Soon, we were at CHamelon. There were these hairbands with strings at the tip of it. ( ooooh,I suck at describing) Nevermind about that lah. So anyway, I wanted it so much and it cost 10.90 Whuuuut?? Forget it.
So anyway, we were crapping about with some beret kinda thing and then somebody approached us. Freaked out. LoLx. Apparently there's these producer(think so) who spotted KAk Ames carrying a guitar and he offered to showcase their talents. Thinking that Kak Eweee and Kak AMes and Kak Fays were a girl band or something. COMPLICATED. I wasn't much attention except that he sang to my name. LOCO!. Nevermind again. Hahahaha.
So anyway, took 242 then Kak Ames and Kak Eweeee sent me home. Slept a while and when I woke up, I was forced to shower little sister planned an outing for the family. We were going to watch WaterHorse at Jp. Yey?!
Skip skip. Tickets. Blah blah. In the cinema!
The show was touching. Won't blog about it. I'll be a spoiler if I choose to blog. Hahs. You MUST catch it. It's a wonderful show. It potrays a lot about friendship,love and about sacrifcing.
There's one prominent phrase I'm able to extract from the show and that is;
You have to let somethings go when you love.
I think I have already let somethings go, because I lovED
So anyway,got home, played comp. Chat chat chat. Slept at 1 and....Mum woke me up at 1.45
Dad,little sis and herself were going to the hospital. Granduncle was admitted due to over exhaustion cum dehydration. I was sleepy and crancky, I couldn't make out what she was saying. Little sister had the liberty to follow simply because she still wasn't asleep then. It was all blurry and I really didn't know what happened so I continued sleeping. That, at that poin in time, was the most logical thing to do right? I mean, I don't get what Mum was trying to say and there were too many movements I barely understood I might as well SLEEP=)
Next thing I knew, they reached home at 5 in the morning. Hahaha.
Spent the entire day completing my homework. Oh man, tomorrow there's school. Well, partially happy and partially sad. Boooo!
I have this strange feeling I'm bound to meet somebody soon. I feel weird
tiARa
Friday, March 14, 2008
Oh god, now where do I start? Haha. This is what happens when I don't blog in between BIG events. Oh well, I shall be exceptionally systemetic today. I'll come up with a content list or something. I was awoken my somebody's message early in the morning. As I was replying his message Cheese called me to confirm the time and stuffs. I panicked a little coz they could be knocking on my door anytime and I was still cranky in bed. LOLx. So anyway, the other he msged me and I msged him and the other one also msged me and I msged him and there were a lot og messaging going on lah. LOLx. So back to the Cheese part. Ya so I asked little sister to go bathe and make breakfast( I suck in the kitchen :X) Then they came. First thing they did was to analyse my comp for don't know what reason and the next thing I knew, they were both playing MAPLE. LoLx. I enjoyed re-taking scenes. Hahaha. But it was a funny plus great experience in all. All thanks to Cheese's pro-ness=) Thanks a lot Chee Sern and Zavier. You guys really made me enjoy that day!
-A day of filming with Chee Sern and Zavier =)
-NACLI :D
-IDC :]
-Auditions :S
-We're all drfting apart.....
A day of filming with Chee Sern and Zavier =)
NACLI 11th-13th March
The camp was definitely a truly memorable one. We made a lot of friends from Regent Secondary. Though there were much tension and conflicts initially, we managed to somehow work together to make the camp a success! Had the bunk with 10 people in them. The bunks were like hotel rooms. They had air-con and all plus plus with showered with the heater on! Cool huh. Hp-s were allowed right so, messaged alot lah. Till my batt went flat. SAD! Had trouble sleeping. I mean how could you possibly sleep with Karna, Qian Hui and Pearly by your side. Haha. We had LOADS of heart-to-heart talks. Hehehex. My lips are sealed guys*winks
Thank you a million Abdullah, Zul, Daniel, Itriah and Nurul for the fun times. I'll cherish them all. Not forgetting the rest of the batch as well. I must thank my team members!
X Factor rocks! You guyz are very love. Without you guyz, I wouldn't have enjoyed Nacli!
Nadiah
Jenine
Jaslyn
Kavitha
Jasmine
Alicia
Lay Ping
Shu Hui
Qian Hui
Itriah
Shirmaine
Yong Yang
Xue Jing
Waichi
Arivindd
Amorif
Kin Hun
Karna
Pearly
Bairavee
Loo Xin
Wei En
Abdullah
Zul
Tian Xiao
Shalini
Nurul
Ranald
Kevin
Jun Hao
Danial
Karna
And and, CHECKMATE WE RULE! To reach. To strive. To outstand. Wooohooo!! We totally nailed all challenges and projects! May we all continue to have that spirit in us!
After camp ended, Nadiah,Zbdullah,Zul,Danial,Kevin, Arivindd and I went to have dinner over at Banquet-Jp. We had tonnes of fun.
In conclusion- I LOVE you guys. I LOVE NACLI!
-IDC :]
Utter disappointment. Don't wiish to elaborate further. Food was nice by the way and I won Best Improved Camper. Yey? Hah. Okaay. Good for me. =.=
Got ditched by the most important people in the world to me. Well. They WERE. Can I put it that way? So much for loving them. Wasted it all.
-Auditions :S
We seeked permission to fall out from camp. "We" here, refers to Bairavee,Shu Hui and me. We searched for the red cross members and we found them! LOLx. Learnt the dance. I tried mantaining a smile though I was too lethargic and fatigue. Nevertheless, I managed to learn the steps and I pray so hard I don't screw up tomorrow. Well, all the best peeps!
-We're all drfting apart.....
It seems as though the so many years of friendship don't mean much to you. You've changed alot. I don't know how to tell you how I feel. I pray you'll come to your senses.
that's all for now. I miss 2-3
loves,
tiARa
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Heyy ya'll!
Sec 1 CAMP was SPLENDID!! Ahhh! Loves, loves and much loves.
Thank you Group 6 for the memorable experience you guys gave me. Thanks a mill Wai Chi for being such a hardowrking GL. You're the BEST!
And so, Mandi,Harriel and Leon were my favourites. You guys really made my day/night. Hahaha. Wo hen teng ai ni men(:
Plus plus my all time favourite besties, who else if it isn't Nurul and E3. Though they were irritating when nearing the end of camp. Grrrr. Anyway, you guys are very loved.
Oh yes, Shahrul too. For making me laugh throughout the whole camp. LoLx
Not forgetting my UNITED BATCHMATES! Can't wait for NACLI.
X Factor Jia you!
Maybe this little section here would be a bit emotional. LOL! Emo ti!
So I wanted to calm my chopy thoughts right in this camp. Well, I managed to, somesort. But it was only partial because I felt envious and jealous for the wrong reasons. Still wondering why but hey, it's just feelings lah so I shan't sleep through it.
At any cause, I'm FINE=)
-tiARa
Friday, March 07, 2008
Urghh!
Don't message or call me peeps. My phone has gone berserk. Hates! After Kak Ewe's magic touch it worked and then it HAD to hang again. Gaaah! Now I DESPERATELY NEEEED to find my waranty card. *Cries
Anywaaaay, I'll be away for 2 days(;
The long awaited camp. Yeys! Let's have tonnes of fun Group 6 of 1C. *Winks
Paired up with WaiChi. Hooraaays! Let's rock some socks WaiChi!
Thank you for the sugar rolls Kak Ewe. Apologies though for the pearls in your oreo-vanilla shake. Hahaha. I LOVE pearls and you don't.Bleeaaaahhhh.
Haha anyway, haven't been paying much attention in English lessons these days. Okaay, let's put it this way. I don't pay much attention to ANY lessons but the engaging ones(now that's an exception. Hehs) simply because I'm glued to my malay book. Afiqah. Very taunting. I'm stucked and glued to it. LOLx. I know I know. Some of my classmates catch me reading in class but wdh, the teachers don't. =p
Anw, I got a free banana on Wed by Ms TanSiYun. She treated me to a banana. LOVES! and I got a free one by a friend today. Hahs. Thanks!
I improved in Math! Weee! Though I failed. But I failed by 1 mark. So that's something to be happy about (:
I hope through these few camps, I would be able to calm my chopy thoughts. I wish and I wish hard.
Jiayou you guyz going for the NCO camp. Loves!
Charmaine and ShuHui are adorable sayang-s!
-tiARa
Thursday, March 06, 2008
I'm currently in a Huge Dilemma. I hate the state I'm in now.
Im not hurting you, I don't want to be hurt BY you and I never want to hurt you.
I ponder all day long.
Need I be less sincere just to spare you from getting hurt in the thinking that you won't be given high hopes?
Need I just be selfless in showering my love, attention, care and concern like the everyday me so as to spare our friendship in the thinking that you are prepared to accept my true thoughts and will?
Or need I just act oblivious to my surroundings. Afterall, they say ignorance is blissed don't they?
Sometimes I just can't help but to question why. Had I been colder or less friendly would I have not gotten myself in such a mess.
Help me. Somebody? Im trading my sanguine self with obscurtiy.... Im trading my sanity.
tiARa
Monday, March 03, 2008
"Perhaps love is the process of me leading you gently back to yourself..Not to whom I want you to be, but to who you truly are deep down inside?" Labels: Lost along the way
The day started off unexpectedly oh so very sweet in school and it had to end so abruptly upsetting plus a little bit of fiery rage-like emotions.
When things take its turn without you expecting it. You get a whole lot of thoughts firing through that very messy mind of yours. You suddenly find so much difficulty in phrasing words you once could utter in pure ease. When you feel like you want to take a stand, to defend yourself or to soothe the other party, you suddenly just were speechless. You couldn't make things better instead you just HAD to give in to your ego and add on to the dull atmosphere where you tend to aggravate a grievance.
I felt all of that. When?
In the library;where I stoop low and rested my chagrined thoughts upon the table while my temperature rose.
Had fever and thankfully it subsided soon after.
"The one who truly loves you, is the one risking to chase after you no matter how far or how long it takes."
You really would? Give it a second,third,fourth or if you have to, a hundred thought.
tiARa
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