Friday, December 28, 2007
Elowwss!And so,today was another splendid day no doubt.Hahs!
Went to school in the morning.Had briefing on Sec1 Orientation.Will be on duty.God,please tell me that Rushdi is in class 1B.Please.Haha.I'm the facillitator for 1B.I'm so glad coz Rushdi MIGHT be in 1B.What's even more fab is that I'm together with Kin Han and LooXiin!Yeys!Guranteed a blast!Weeee!Nurul and E3 will be like next to each other.So unfair but I'll have fun=)
Mdm didn't fetch us from school today.Instead we went home by train.After alighting at BukitBatok,we walked around WestMall to grab a bite.Where at?OldChangKee lerr.Where else seh.So,E3 had her gyoza veg.Eeeeewwwww!Plus chicken wrap.I had ,my SOTONG!And I bought the wrong one.Gaaaaahhhhh!!!But I had to finish it anyway.My stomach need to be filled.I was famished for crying out loud.Asal sotong,jadilah.
Went home(second home that is)for lunch and bathed.Soon,we were off to Madrasah to collec our results.Funny alright!And so,this was what we obtained.
Mine
2 A*s
2 As
1 C
Total agg-423
I'm thankful!
Itriah's
Simillar.And she got 424.Haha!We were like sooooppperrr doooppperr happy la!Alhamdullilah.
After that,we went home and ate.Again.Haha!I had fun today!Tomorrow would be tiring too.Ok,now I wana go call Nurul.Oh yupp,as I promised,pictures! 
Lil' Jasmine.Pretty lil' one
Practice makes perfect!
Bbq-ing.Nadd!!
I love this strong babe!
While waiting for the train.
Through it all=)
We'll make it through!After hearing what Mdm said,thank god I'm happy with the state I'm in.Eeeewww!Disgusting seh that fellow.Lucky seh.Don't wish to elaborate more.Whatever it is,I'm fine the way it is. Smiles! Tiara.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Going to town with Labels: Town
-A 38 year old STYLISH mum of 4
-A laughing machine-like younger sister
-2 hyper active and mischiveous off-keyed singing boys
-A quiet yet observant 11 year old
-A sweet,innocent plus talkative 6 year old
and a loveable best friend sure did rock so much out of me!It was FAB big time baybeh.Hahahaha.We watched Alvin and the chipmunks at Lido.Ok,so I watched it twice.But it was fantastic larh.Boy, was it funny having those kids around!Isetan was flooded with tonnes of people.Why?Because they had a sale.Hot sale!Discounts everywhere.I'm talking everywhere.Spent soo many hours there.Laughed alot.How not to.Luqman and Danish were making fools out of themselves and it was super hillarious.Kekek seh!Tak boleh angkat.Like serious.Danish sang Aspalela so loud that everyone turned to look at him.Maner tak seh.He went like"Lela Lela Lela Lela!Oh!Oh!Oh!!Jangan buat ku kecewa."Hahahahaha!!!He sat beside me and E3.We were laughing so hard that we moved aside not wanting to be associated to him.He sang with full passion and confidence.*Giggles*Luqman went like,"Alamak!Man tak kenal seh ni siaper.Lah!Buat malu jer.Kalau tau,tak pakai baju sepasang seh.Aiyoh."Hahahaha.Wombab betol!In the words of Farhan,"World lah oi!"Hahahahaha!Ok2,and so,we smuggled in 2 twisties packs each,1 m&m's packet and 1 packet of Hello Panda .That's not BAD alright.Now,hear this one.Nurul Itriah smuggled in Char Siew Pau.WTH right?But the thing is she cannot beat Nurul lah.Nurul smuggled in Siew Mai.Rabak lerr best friends Tiara.Tsktsktsk.Hahahaha.What can I say.That's them!
Walked around Lucky Plaza and Far East Plaza.Went to the surau in Royal On Scotts to perform our prayers.After we had ice-cream and all,we finally headed home by train.Alighted at Bukit Batok and had McDonald's for teabreak.Sedap!Haha.Then Cik Azmi sent Elia and me home.Luqman taught me how to play with straws in the car.Fun larh actually.Really=)
I had an extremely fun and tiring day.One thing that's for sure,I know where my true happiness lies in.I love these oh so brilliant lil' kidos!I LOVE second home.Tomorrow E3 and I will be collecting our results.Insyaallah we did well.Amin.I'm praying so hard for a well result.Insyaallah.
I've never felt this happy.Thanks a million korang!=)
Thnx Nadd!
Nurl,Singtel gilaaaa!I call you lerr.Answer pleaseeee.Hehs.
Loves!
~tiARa
Pics tomorrow yea?
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
I LOVE today!Finally,I met the kids.They were all hyped up for their performances today.Though I couldn't stay for the actual party,at least I was there to help with the props and BBQ pit.Yup yup!I fixed it!I'm proud lah that I could fix such things with a screwdriver.So ummm,so technical?LOL!But it was great experience.It was much fun having Nadd,Rushdi and Farhan plus Ain around.They were my saviour for the day!Thanks alot guys!I did Qamarena's hair today and she looks splendid!Lovely=)The other kids were so adorable.I pray for another chance to see them however I'm thankful for this day,yes I am!
The next few posts are specially and sincerely dedicated to a few of my best friends.
Dearest Nadd,
Today was hard for the both of us coz we shared so much problems with each other and I'm proud of you Nadd coz you made the right choice.Don't look back because you simply shouldn't.You don't deserve to be treated like that and you are one strong girl!Kau tak rugi apa per tau Nadd,instead kau gain lagi ada.Kau gain freedom=)He is no one to control you and you deserve to love anyone you wish to alright?I want to thank you so much for wiping my tears today.Your presence mean alot to me.If it weren't for you just now I would have just brokedown anytime.Thanks so much girl!We shall pull through together ya?And,aku doa kau dapat masuk kelas yang kau inginkan sangat2 tu ok!3N1 will be yours.Thanks again.
Dearest E3,
What more can I say ?This may not be the second or third time because it probably is the fourth or fifth time it happened.I feel so ashamed that I bottle everything up and mantained so much but I had to stoop my pride and dignity low and cry,once again.No matter how much I disappoint you and you probably are already so bored hearing the same things over and over again,nevertheless,you picked up my call with much anticipation I believe,and listened.You talked me through.You listened.You didn't hear to my cries,you listened to my cries.It's been too many times already.Remember the promise I made you when it were to happen again,it means that Allah is giving me an opportunity to prove myself.I may have cried initially but it won't last long would it?=)It wouldn't.Crying may have been the first initial step but I really do believe I'll be someone out of me and not just a pathetic weak soul.You make me stronger sis,you do.Thanks for your listening ear.I know I can count on you whenever and where ever=)
Lastly,
Dearest Farhan,
We've been through so much together since we were so very young.We practically shared our childhood with each other.
You were there when I first got hit by a soccer ball on my face
(that's because you kicked it!Hahs!).
You were the first I shared a secret with.
(because I knew it would be safe with you)
You were the first to know my ever first crush.
(because I was too embarrassed to tell anyone else)
You were there when I got into trouble
(because you HAD to get into trouble with me though you knew fairly what the consequence would be.)
You were the one who would finish my carrots during lunch because I wouldn't eat them
(and I would eat your peas and corn on the plate for lunch so that we could go for outdoor first)
You were the first I told when I failed for the very first time
(you didn't pity me,you laughed.Because on that day, you failed for the first time too)
You were the one who would share with me everything that you had
(Because you treated me like your very own flesh and blood)
It was at your bathroom,back at your home,where I first got stuck in the toilet
(You talked me through in order to open the lock to your bathroom instead of prying it open for me.You taught me to rely on my own.)
You saw me cry when I was first heartbroken
(and you told me that there were many guys out there who would love me for who I am and that no ordinary person would appriciate me because only someone special would.)
After all that's said and done,I thank you a million for being there for me today.You saw me at myworst today,yet you didn't give up on me.You tolerated my stubborness and made me realise that I deserve better.I know you're mad somehow because I got hurt again,even after I knew the consequences but trust me,I'll be a better person as off today.Thanks bestfriend.You're one in a million bro.You'll always be my one and only bro who I treat like my very own flesh and blood.
I'm fine!I just need Nurul to complete it all and I'll be ok!My head's still high up.Everyday's a blessing for me=)
~tiARa
Monday, December 24, 2007
Heyys!No one's home but my sister and me.We're waiting for my mum to come home.And so,I really thought I could drop by SC today to give Nadd her gift but when I asked my mum,she said no.I didn't disobey,I just received the blunt answer well.I really miss the kids so much.On last Tuesday,I dropped by in the morning because Mdm had Mars chocolate bars prepared for them and so I was asked to run the errand,I needed to pass Mdm Halizah the chocolates.As soon as I stepped into the centre,I saw Nadd.Since I was in such a hurry,I barely looked at her.Haiz.The kids were all excited,thinking that I would be staying for a few hours but I couldn't.I could see the glow on Qamarena's face like really sweet.She went like"Kakak,why are you rushing?"I probably broke her heart when I said I couldn't stay for long. Labels: I'm happy., If I sacrifice for love
When I said that,I could see all their glum faces.Especially Aishah.I'm missing them badly.So,I though I could come for the outing on last Wednesday.I asked my mum and she said no.I didn't disobey.I just tilted my head away and looked down.I was very upset in fact.I didn't have anything going on,on that day but she didn't allow me to go.I don't want to know the reason.I didn't retaliate or anything.Sometimes I wish people knew how much these kids mean to me.No one actually knows the bond built between me and the kids but the teachers themselves.I've been with kids since a long time ago and it sure did hurt when someone said I was bad with kids.But it was his thought so,I accepted it constructively.
Yesterday,we went to JP to watch Alvin and The Chipmunks.Before we went into the cinema,we walked around and we went to Courts.I was browsing through some adaptors when all of a sudden I was grabbed my the dress.Then I realise it was Little Farhan.That 6 year old boy was so thrilled to see me.He was like"Ehh!Kak Tiara,hello!Kak Tiara you see my mummy want to buy this and buy that."I smiled so wide and got engaged in his very innocent conversation.He then pulled his 8 year old brother Raihan and said,"Abang!Abang!You see there.Kakak Tiara!"Haha.Cute right.Then Raihan said"Eh eh,Kakak Tiara!Why you never come Sc?We miss you."
I could only offer a blunt smile.But I was sincere.I mean they're kids,they won't be able to tell if my smile was a sad one or something.But it was a great joy to have met them.These kids are a big deal to me.They make me all smiley and everything.I wish I have the chance to see them.I really want to.I pray I could come this Wednesday.It's the year end party and I'm sure all the Ex students would come down.I miss them alot too.7 years of my childhood life there.It's hard to part you know.So many memories.Too many memories,actually.
What hurts even more was that this morning,when I woke up,I received a message.It was from Farhan,the 14 year old one.The one who's seen me cry,fall,trip,failed,laugh,smile,heartbroken,messed up,at my worst,got into trouble with.Practically everything.My very loved bro.Anyway,he asked me,Ti you coming today?What could I have said.I reluctantly said,Nope,sorry.It's been ages since we've met.I really understand how he feels.I miss him terribly.Nevertheless,I told him to go coz I think Nadd would be around and she really wanted to see him.I hope they have an enjoyable day together=)
I miss Farhan badly.I feel somewhat guilty.He's been asking me if I could juz drop by.Even for a while.He doesn't mind.He just wants to see me.Haiz.I just wish my mum would allow me to come this Wednesday.I miss a whole bunch of people.
Kalau ada jodoh ditemukan lagi,tak akan kemana.That's what E3 said and that's the only line that keeps me going.It's true we only plan,put in effort and hope for the best but at the end of the day,it's HIM who permits it all.I accept everything that has been arranged accordingly.I only pray for the best.
I wish you knew that it hurts me to sacrifice.You might say I'm being selfish because I've always sacrificed our happiness.But I'm sure there would be a desired outcome.Be patient.Now that it seems like you're giving up and letting go of everything,it hurts me more.I'm doing my best,please understand.
~tiARa
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Today's fun fun though I now have blisters on my palms and they hurt bad ok.Mummy and Daddy had this formal dinner don't know what crap crap thing yesterday and they got home real late.I called Nurul and we talked for almost 2 hours.That was so minimal.*sobs*At least a 3 hour chat would be sufficient.I'm not exaggerating.Serious lah.Anyway,laughed quite alot and at the same time I confided in her.Thanks dear sis.You're one great listener.You're so loved!
Headed off to West coast for branch this morning.Ate Char Kuay sotong.LOL!I wanted Kacang phool.Then don't have.Boo!But Char Kuay was nicee.After makan,we went to West coast park.LOL!I climbed the spider web thing and made it to the top.3 times.As a result,I managed to obtain blisters.Wow,great job Ti.Hahaha,but it was FUN!Then that stupid monkey bar lah!I fell down after a few grips.It wasn't bars,it was that rope kind thing or something,SAKIT lah!I had the chance to flaunt my shades but then it started to rain.Retribution.Haha.Drama queen.Action lah Ti.
Supposed to go Vivo to watch Alvin and the chipmunks but it seems like everyone's too tired.We'll go watch it tomorrow at Vivo.And I'll be watching it twice,on Thursday that is.Gaaahhh!But it'll be fun coz it's with second home.Wee!So I guess,we're all going out for dinner tonight.Probably at town,if not then,at Sakura.I don't mind.I'm starving.I just need food.I really do!
I'm fine.I'm happy,I am.Well,at least I think I am.One step at a time.I'll make it through.No more negative vibes,nah uh.Haha!
I love life!Thank god for giving me a fortunate life.I'm blessed=)
Ya Allah,bimbinglah aku kerana sesungguhnya engkau lebih tahu akan segalanya.Amin.
I know I'm loved.By many..
~tiARa
Friday, December 21, 2007
I'm overjoyed!Aaaahhh!!I'm soo very happy!I received an e-mail from the editor of "Detik".I'm invited to a forum which would be telecasted on tv.Exciting ain't it.Ok now I have to call Nurul to ask her if I should go.Nurul Itriah should have been invited as well as we both sent in our feedbacks but it's seriously saddening coz she's back in Malacca=(
Damn!It's scary without E3 around when it comes to all this Malay kinda thing.Now I'm nervous.But it's fabulous that you get invited.Really,it is!It's not about the whole telecasting and stuff.I mean,I get to speak my mind on national television.Now how cool is that!Wee!On the other hand,it triggers me to be extra careful.Imagine if I unintentionally offend someone.That's bad.Gaaahhhh!I'm just so elated.I'm gonna call Nurul right away!As far as I'm concern,she seems like the only one who cares about me now=)Besides my parents that is.*Smiles*
I'm blessed!
~tiARa
Thursday, December 20, 2007
I'm not the type to get my heart broken Labels: Cry
I'm not the type to get upset and cry'
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got that whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing
My mind is gone
I'm spinnin round
And deep inside
My tears I'll drown
I'm losin grip
What's happening
I strayed from love
This is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what, you'll never see me cry
:)
Yours truly,
tiARa
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Ok,I've got trouble starting today's post.Writers' block I reckon.Nevertheless,that particular sentence made my opening already(: Labels: Paradigm Shift
Messed up.I am very messed up.Don't wana share much though but I'll pull myself together.Maybe it is time to stop being hard on myself and start recognizing someone else's flaws.No that I want to but it shatters me terribly when I blame myself for practically everything.It really isn't about Tiara being modest or if you might see it at another point,tactful.
You see.Most of the times,it's definitely a hundred percent my fault.And I learn,I really do.Sometimes, it's partially my fault and I realise.I do.At times,it really isn't my fault but somehow,it gradually becomes mine.People don't seem to realise that I'm just being compassionate to take the blame,so as to not hurt others.I wouldn't ask to be spared a tear that is bound to shed,a bitter stab in the heart or even a shallow smudged smile.I don't.
Yes,I've been condemned a million times by bestfriends because according to them,I'm simply too soft and since I feel for EVERYONE,I bear the pain funnily,on their behalf?Something like that.Yup.Initially,I thought that's just my nature and I wouldn't change.Even if it hurts all the time.Well,It's a wake up call now I feel because I'm starting to think otherwise.
However,the pain wouldn't fade would it?I'm just faking a few smiles to please no one but myself.I'll pull through soon.I will(:
This is what I get for wishful thinking.Yup.
And and,Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha everyone.HAve an enjoyable Aidiladha!
~tiARa
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
I'm back!Yes I am.I sure did miss a lot of people.I really did!Haha.
Beijing was much fun.If I were to post about the whole week,it'll be soo very long trust me.Haha.It's an expensive city I must say.And so,I climbed the Great Wall of China,visited the Forbidden City,strolled in the Summer Palace and so much more.Going into Factories where pearls,jades,jeweleries and silks were manufactured was really educational.I learnt alot of things.Did you know that fresh water oysters produce more than 10 pearls in it whilst the common sea water oysters would contain only one pearl in its clam.Cool right?I never knew that fact till then.=)
Food was amazing!We were served fantastic dishes.Now that definitely resulted to me gaining kilo-s.Well,I don't quite regret(not yet I suppose.Hahs!)There were countless Halal Restaurants over at Beijing.Surprising indeed.The mosques were all small and ironically easy to spot in a Chinese-majority city.Shopping however,was very tiring.If you happen to go there,trust me,BARGAIN!As low as half price,lower in fact.Just BARGAIN.Since the things on sale were so expensive,I managed to get myself a pair of purple Dior shades and a black turtle neck shirt.Yes yes,shades again.Haha.What can you expect from a drama queen.*Smiles*Anyway,Elia bought a pair of Vesace!Spoilt lil' fashionable sis.But her shades,they're dope alright.I bought Nurul,E3 and Nadd things too=)
I saw Pandas!Having a panda best friend ain't good enough.I needed to see the real thing.Sadly,there were less than 10.So people,save the earth.Do your part;D
It was freezing cold.-4degrees celcius.You can imagine huh.But in a whole I really anjoyed the trip.I missed alot of people though.
Someone educate some people about the definition of a holiday.Ok maybe let's try being more SPECIFIC.How about DECEMBER HOLIDAYS.Haiz.Why?I'm just so down.Everytime we plan something,something else gets in the way.This stresses me out.Ya Allah,please guide me along.
I'm just trying my best to balance.I am.
These are the confessions of my wailing heart.
~tiARa
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Heyy peeps!I'll be flying off to Beijing,China tomorrow.So,you should know that this blog is going to be dormant/latent for approximately a week.If anyone posts,it SHOULD be dearest Ferrero.Yeaaa?I'm so excited!It's snowing there.I've packed all my things.From the sweaters to the long johns and the gloves plus the ear muffs.Cool right!I can't wait!I'll post pictures for sure.
And to you who totally copied Nurul.Shame on you.Go find some originality sensing class or something and attend it.You seriously need an originality check-up like big time.Like Nurul mentioned,copying is NASTY.It is.Oh come on.I'm sure it won't kill to have your brain cells work a little harder to seek for that individual effort in originality?People.*Sighs!*
Pray for me a safe journey.Amin.
~tiARa
Thursday, December 06, 2007
Let's update Wednesday's and Thursday's fun-s shall we?
Wednesday!
Bedok Community Library Excursion
So much fun!Many turned up.Despite the unfavourable weather,we still enjoyed.Intended to borrow books but since I had someone as my company,hmm,forget about books.Haha!Watched over the kids.Fooled around.Got into trouble.Aiyoh!Embarrassing lah ok.Thanks Elyas for saving my sorry butt.Hahaha.You're the best.I almost cried lah.Enough of the embarrassment,haha.Malu seh!Anyway,payed Elia's fine.She owed the library 9 bucks!I had to pay the sum through my eZ Link.She paid me back gracefully.Lucky ah!Got caught in the rain.We were DRENCHED.I'm talking drenched and super WET!After we went back to SC,watched over the kids again.Went to buy stuffs with Elyas.Haha!So fun.Wore his jacket cause he was SOOO afraid I might catch a cold.Don't worry pleaseee.I'm soo fine=)Qamarena was such a sweetheart.Boy was she sweet and CUTE!Kakak Tiara here and Kakak Tiara there.ADORABLE!
When everyone else went home,Mdm Halizah,Mdm Ruby,Mdm Liza,Cik Jun,Qamarena,Elyas and me headed to Lestari.They had the luxury to travel by car.Elyas and me had to WALK from Sc to Lestari.*Cries*Though the journey was so long,it was a sweet one.Crapped alot!Again,we got WET.Adoi.We reached there and ate Ayam Penyet.Sedap lah!Soon,I was safely sent home.(=
Thanks for the wonderful day!I appriciate it so much.It'll last so long in my heart!
Thursday
Bee Hive B.Farm
Today's outing with second home was supposed to be BEE-like.LOL.Since it was raining,the bees wouldn't come out so we had to just stroll around the farm mart to look at shops.Bought some pure honey drink or something.It tasted DOPE lah!NICEEE.Like seriously.I wanted to buy another cup when I realised that it was time to leave.Mdm and Miss Yanti sure did had their smiley faces on as they got themselves some detoxifying honey product.Hahs!So slim already still wana lose weight.Cute teachers!Anyway honey sure did remind me of Pooh Bear.Hehehex.A-DO-RA-BLE?VERY!Saw my hp pouch on sale at Kiddy Palace!We had lunch at Pizza Hut.Cool eh?The kids really really enjoyed.Loves!
That's all I guess.Pictures up next!
Naughty Syakir! and Cute Qamarena.Nicee right the pic?
Blurry,but still cute.Laughs!
My boys!
Izz D.Luqmanul.E3.Indulging in their soup for the day.Haha!
Not exactly a perfect picture but it's Picture Perfect-If you can make out the drawings!
Nadd and Ti=Hot Kakak-s!Wee!Loves.
Bug-A-Boo-We rock your world!
My haristylist for that day.Loves!
Even when we're pissed.Really=)
Potato and potato.Potatoes!Haha!
We LOVE cameras.Trust me!
~tiARa
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
I miss dear Nurul!I hope she's having fun right now over the sea.Have fun girlfrienddd!You shall be dearly missed.I LOVE YOU candaaayass.
And so,I chanced upon this.I tink it's very reassuring and really sweet.So guys,I believe this is how a girl wants to be treated.(Haha,I'm hinting.*ehem*)To anyone who feels that he or she is applicable then,by all means.Other than that,it's just fun stuff yar?
if i dont call you
[ Its because im waiting for you tocall me ]
When i walk away from you
[ Follow me ]
When i stare at your mouth
[ Kiss me ]
When i push you or hit you
[ Grab me and dont let go ]
When i start cursing at you
[ Kiss me and tell me you love me ]
When im quiet
[ Ask me whats wrong ]
When i ignore you
[ Give me your attention ]
When i pull away
[ Pull me back ]
When you see me at my worst
[ Tell me i am beautiful ]
When you see me start crying
[ Hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]
When you see me walking
[ Sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]
When im scared
[ Protect me ]
When i lay my head on your shoulder
[ Tilt my head up and kiss me ]
When i tease you
[ Tease me back and make me laugh ]
When i dont answer for a long time
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]
When i look at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]
When i say that i love you
[ I really do more than you could understand ]
When i grab at your hands
[ Hold mine and play with my fingers ]
When i bump into you
[ bump into me back and make me laugh ]
When i tell you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]
When i look at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until i do ]
When i miss you
[ i am hurting inside ]
When you break my heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]
When i say its over[ i still want you to be mine ]
The heart's all over the world tonight.=)With you...
~tiARa
Hello primates all over the world!
I don't have to do any self-introduction, do I? I mean like it's obvious Ti won't write such stuff. Right? Okay nevermind. TIARA I cured the blog again, for the second time! Sheesh. You have to start getting it right. :D Learn from Nurl! Huahuahua.
Once in a while, it doesn't hurt to blog here yeah? Anyway, Ti do take note that I'm going off tomorrow. Call me up if you care, or still remember me, heeh.
Okay, I'm done. :D
TIARA
cH0c0QRowN!Ti [Your daily blogger]
