
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
ola2!!..haha pls do not laf orites.i noe my malay isn't DAT fantastic.don get d WRONG idea pls..haha.i did an entry in malay coz of some reason.haha.for HMT. now all u ppl noe how my written is,dis is juz written,nt yet my command*cheeky smile*lagi worse!!=D..ouh LOLX..gt nth to blog reali.finished going thru wif elia her science things..haiz.im reali worried for these kiddos..luqman,elia n danish..especially luqman!!i hope he reali STUDY..its reali hard dealing wif dat one briliant boy..he's juz lazy n he doesn't wana focus..i pity e3, its onli right if i help her out in tutoring luqmanul..wads worst is dat luqman said.."kak ti,kak 3, man nk try gi YISS ahk..nnti boleh jumper ramai gangster.."imagine our reactions??=.=!!we were like..luqman please no!!ouh gosh..he is capable of more..i reali don mean to b angry at him n stuff..i hope he understands..haiz..he IS afterall juz 10 yrs old.. i don noe y but my instincts tell me that farhan's having a prob..urgh!! i miss him soo much..when i msg him, he doesn't seem himself..haiz..sweets, if dere's anythin u wish to share i'll always b dere for u..u noe i will=)...besides missing farhan,im missing my 6-2 classmates la..aj,u kinda chnge a lil'..haiz..due to ur skool i guess...well, mantain d same aj pls..i can't take it when u chnge drastically aites..well dats all i guess..i tink i SHOULD heed nurl's advice..try my best nt to haf any contacts wif d fwens oso..coz dey oso one kind..siow2..later contagious how??hehex..no offence la ppl..its juz dat..u guyz don seem to like me either..well too bad..i gt a lot to offer but u tink she is capable of more so..i hope u won't regret!=D..izit mie or am i actuali being quite harsh??hehex..well, dats d new ti i guess..i dun quite fancy beating about d bush..soo, when i say smth, i might nt haf d time to consider ur thots..wad to do??u thot me to b dat way rite??i hope u guyz can adapt wif me..i've tolerated enuf=D
tiARa
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
letihnya!!hari ini,selepas sekolah ada bengkel bahasa inggeris.setelah habis bengkel,aku terpaksa berjumpa dengan ma'am izzah dan ma'am faidilah. mereka berdua,pengurus bagi pertandingan talentime pada tahun ini.pertandingan itu akan diadakan pada minggu hadapan.aku akan mewakili sekolah untuk pertandingan menyanyi manakala yang lain akan mewakili sekolah untuk pertandingan joget tradisional.maklumlah aku ni kan kaku,tidaklah begitu mahir dalam seni joget ini.harapkan suaraku yang kini pun tidak semerdu rakan-rakan yang lain.pada tahun lepas, aku telah memenangi tempat yang pertama bagi pertandingan yang sama.namun, aku tidaklah begitu yakin jika trofi itu akan menjadi milikku pada tahun ini.hmm, nampaknya aku harus berlatih dengan lebih gigih lagi untuk membanggakan squad palang merah dan juga sekolah ku.mata pun dah hampir terlelap.sehingga kita berjumpa lagi=)
~tiARa~
Saturday, February 24, 2007
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
hmm ok..reflection time..well, i guess d words illustrates it all yarh??LOLx.. to tink it would haf been me..it was foolish..indecicive n fickled minded..logically, dat would onli b d nature of someone in d same state as i am ain't it?? u won't agree or rather u would find it hard to agree coz u're nt feeling it..u caused it, how r u to feel it??it is a despicable n selfish act, but at d same time not sinful one..i can't n can blame myslef..we each haf a role to play..a vital one..it leads back to how i am to handle..wad i am able to conclude right now,at dis moment in time is dat..
Friday, February 23, 2007
too bad my vocab bank is way limited at dis point in time..its veri simple why;
first,im all of d above*cheeky smile*
second,im in no mood coz some ppl juz had to b self-centred
third,im in need of chocolates n i can't find ani,coz i've eaten dem all!!hehex..
ok dats all for nw..u better appriciate dis moment..for once i ain't posting no essay..=D..bubbye bubbles n kebabs..hehex
ti is sooo out...;)
Thursday, February 22, 2007
heya!!haha..haiz..i came home at 7 todae..imagine la??haha..had audition juz nw..yey!made it..alhamdullilah! thnx to my seniors who were SOO kind n understanding..sorwee to d other 5 peeps hu each possese such great voice coz mine is a totally different a genre..all u guyz haf gt high pitches,no flactuations n i am DEAD envious coz u guyz can mantain d same tune d whole sng thru..while i can't..urgh!!ma'am fai n ma'am izzah r my idols!!yipees!!ma'am izzah trained d rest while ma'am fai trained me,alone..LOLX sat wif her in d canteen..she made me sing here without u n evrything i do,i do it for u aloud..paiseh u noe!!ppl c..poor souls had to bare dat few mins to hear me sing..n it strted raining heavily!!=.=!haha..ma'am fai say rain means dey like..haha..yelah2 kak..den go back to red cross room n soon ma'am fai n ma'am izzah taught me d choreography for MY LOVE..haha..flaunt it too n we grooved to london bridge.cool ahk..den met nurul!!was relieved ahk..we went home together..=D wif enthia=D my new buddy!!hehex..den at d bus stp we gt splashed!!urgh dis stoopid van sped across n splashed us wif water!!hatecha!!..niwayys..books gt wet n we were drenched in d rain..LOLx..haiz..wad a lethargic day!!haiz..i wana slip la..nyte2..=D
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
greetings to every one of u beautiful soul out dere.hehex.hmm, let's review wad i did todae shall we??..in systemetic order;
1)woke up in d morn,do d norm stuff
2)went to IMM,ate at long john's went to best denki
3)went to Funan IT Mall
4)went home(ate,prayed,blabbed)
5)did karangan
6)download sng for HMT
7)blogging,at d same time irritating my sister..haha
yup2, u can declare my life as off dis moment, a bore!!haha..soo boring..despite going out n all, i still am nt satisfied!! i saw ct juz nw, at IMM haha!soo nice to c her again!!haha..we actuali wanted to buy d modem thingy for my dad coz he's cable spoiled or smth..den dey didn't haf it at IMM so we went to funan..nopeyz..nt dere either..soo we went all d way to buy polar cakes!!haha LOLx...ok wad..all d way to buy polar cakes..hehex..i trying to chnge d frenster skin..but kinda lazy..wait la..dec hols den chnge..hehex..ouhkays den..tml's skool..ouh ok..dere's HMT tml so i guess..i'll only blog depending on my mood la..u noe it flacutates rapidly..soo..i juz hope i can smile d whole day thru tomoro..=D..daud gimme testimonial ahk..kak ct too..hehex..n kak lyla..n nanep..hehex..tkder keje, go bug dis poor ppl for testimonials..hehex!!
tiARa~~
Sunday, February 18, 2007
hey dere!!..haha, todae was oober fun!!..had dat captain's ball thingy..ok larh..gt hit a couple of times..my lips bled..LOLx..n dere WERE groups which played roughly..haha, but as a whole i reali njoyed myself,having to be with my loved ones arnd..haiz..reali wished to haf had nurl arnd..but it was fun..wif d lil' kiddos, luqman,danish,irbah,elia,insyi,faiz n amirah..d parents, ma'am soop,ci azmi,mdm,cik razali,nenek,mummy n cik yah..n of coz my bestie..e3!!haha..ate A LOT of junk food todae..haha..dats xplains d whole bloat in d cheeks..hmm..ciz razali advised me todae on having to take charge of my own life..people may mistakenly judge me or may often assume my wantings but at d end of d day, d decision lies in my hands..its true la.it reali is..i mean..looking at how god is testing me rite now..its onli vital dat i noe wad im doing..i have to b firm in wadever decisions i make..nt juz a simple assumption or a short envision of how d outcome mayb..soo..i gotta b thinkin maturely la..i can safely say its tough!!haha..no kidding..it is!
to her: i've nvr liked u since day one..obvious tiara wannabe,although i felt pissed off when u were always arnd me, i nvr thot u would go dat far.i sense competition no doubt.i do not hate u..i will not inculcate hatred though, but seriously when u get too far, i will acknowledge. u do what u want but don't u tarnish my reputation. me, scared? u wish.i don't like d sight of u lah..acting all innocent but ur intentions are otherwise..i go to school to fulfil my responsibility as a student n i suggest u d same..mind ur own business n if u wana suck up to teachers..b my guest..if u feel u can earn teachers' trusts like dat den by all means, b my guest!..but only a fool would buy all ur fake n stoopid lies..its gd enuf i dun confront u on d spot..at least i got sense n i DO think of ur face-value..juz live ur live n back off mine kays?
to him:haiz..i seriously dun get u..im being a very supportive fren, d least u could do was to show dat u appriciate rites..?? haiz..its reali up to u though..u can't xpect me to b begging u to give me one more chance so that i can hear u call me baby once more..errr...i dun think so. hmm..im juz trying to b nice, well, to me it onli is courteous if i do so..but den again if u find me a nosey girl den do tell me lah..haha..wouldn't wan to waste energy n money if wad im doing is unappriciated even though its of good intention..dere's always a blesing in disguise, i believe in dat..d blessing might not come todae,nt tomorrow but mayb in my yrs to come..so long as im patient..i noe i'll get it..when allah is with me, i have got absolutely nth to fear=)
to aj:thnx bro for being so proud of me..i can really c how overjoyed u r after "declaring" dat i've moved on n all..i noe dat u've been praying so hard for me to move on..n for me to go find someone else..well, i won't but i HAVE moved on..all thnx to u too..for giving me d morale support i nd..d guidence,d motivation n all..u've stood by me thru my thick n thin,same goes to nurl n e3..without u guyz, i won't b standing tall like now..as off todae, i'll try my veri best to nt disappoint u guyz owites..my best buddies..together we unite..!!yeys!!haha..
hmm..i've blabbed quite a lot todae.well gdnite ppl..may tomoro b a brighter day..todae all u ppl dared to struggle n tomoro all u ppl WILL dare to win!!yar!..kays..nytez den..
much love,
ti
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
im indecicive..in a dillema, simply juz on d fence...not knowing wad to do really is a pain in d heart...am i going to do anything about it??? am i juz going to sit n wait till smth miraculously happens?? am i going to let out all dat i feel truely or am i juz going to lie so dat everyone feels better..and at d same time hurt myself??? shld i allow happiness while i suffer??? or shld i push n i'd b satisfied?? how..why..??? im at a lost...at a total lost...i dunnoe wad to do..would someone tell me what to do??? or shld i listen to my heart...*smiles*..all dat i can react after all that is said n done...how sad..
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
cwedits to nuwul shweeety for dish vewy C_U-T-E pic..love u sish!!
i drastcially dropped my mly test...i soo dun wana share...frm an A* to a B3...ouh gosh!!...i gues...its like d first test...n i AM still adapting to d new environment especially after d subjects increased on d double..haiz...other than dat...i was ok i suppose... i ate..check..i LAUGHED!!...check...but nt alot la...more to juz giving ppl d look evrytime i dun feel like smiling...n i breathe...still am....soo..im ok la..tml we got MINI celebration at e3 place...gonna meet eqal dere...n freddy too...cool rite!!..argh!!nuwul couldn't make it...if she could haf...i swear i'd go to sc tml n c adam...i miss him like crazy...i juz wana c him!!!...i miss 6-2...u guyz...can we like go out in advance...b4 d hols..im 6-2 sick...i miss u guyz like too much...i wana go watch movie again....uhhhh....n plz3..plead n pray our parents would approve of d chalet...if we haf to bring mrs V...soo be it peeps...ok? ok?...i reali wana go vivo n watch movie dis march...can we??? can we?? pweash hah....ok2..c ya ppl soon...bubbyess...loadz of lurve, hugs n kisses,
chococrown..
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
hey ppl....ti is in d house!!hahakz...vewi2 cwazie todae, dun ask me y...cuz i FINISHED my tests i suppose??hahakz...okays2...love is definitely in d air...im surrounded by love sparks, crackling arnd like nobody's business seyy...my best fwens...my classmates...my sistas n bros...haha!! C-U-T-E people...veri cute...well...lil-ti is bck in d matchmaking scheme...hehe..i pray so veri hard dat dzul would get back his sweethrt yar...he is damn sweeet la..dey fought a lil' n she is having a hard time forgiving him...but he's gonna surprise her on 14 feb wif smth dead sweet...c la, hu taught him rite...hehex(self-praising is at times crucial nurul dear...) n e3 too..wif "him"..aLL d bEsT sis..nuwul too..she actuali haf oni dowan to admit...nuti gurl!!aJ..don gif up sweeTs..no matter wad happens im dere for u..hehex..my classmates too!! 6th wk in d same class n i c sparks...awwww...sweeet la!!..cute2 sme mre ppl..haha...im soo happie my loved ones r having a taste of love...i hope dey last long...best wishes frm me to u guyz...d best n onli d best!! haha..well, for me, i always haf my baby pooh wif mie...n chocolates, n bananas, n lollipops, dem!! n of coz..myself...im living ma life to d fullest!!..im forever tiara d bubbly n outstanding crown...yea!!dats mie...for those hu have disappint mie, no hard feelings, i don't bear grudges coz my mummy thot me better than dat, in stead...i wana thnk u for making me a better person in a way or 2..u've challenged me, n im a strong babe..=D..ouh i am!!..in d words of raven symone.."this is my time to shine, this is my place to find all that i have inside, i nvr knew...this is my time to show wad i have must always known..dat nth is impossible n dreams come true!!
much love~
tiAra=)
Monday, February 05, 2007
hey hey!!...hahakz...n sooo, todae, i had my FIRST common test!!hehex..cool sey...math it was...all numbery,inequality stuff thingy2...hahakz...nvm bout dat...den2...tml gt sci...im seriously dead worried bout sci lah..onli xpress class taking bio..n due to time constrain we haf to use our sci lecture notes for refrence....n prior to dat, i haf to squueeez my brain cells...dang it!!urgh!!..nvm bout dat...again..hahakz...y'day watched anugerah BH...mawi handsome gilerrr...n sooo was faizal AF!!!hahakz...zahid won...cutee nyer...went back to e3's house tadi...gt HMT..aiyoh...loadz to learn n study...gt test soon...ouh man...hmm..pa per la..i oso malas seyy...todae sooo suddenly thot of farhan...dunnoe y..hahakz...rindu sngt agaknyer...soo i msged him...he's doing gr8...gd fer him ler...k2..gtg study n finish up those heart-wrecking h/w...sakit hati babe...grrr!!!...e3 is soo mad at him...todae den i buka cerita...telling her hw he treated me n all...i gt a scolding frm her coz i didn't tell her about dis long ago...n she said i made d biggest mistake as i neglected my best fren bcoz of d untruthful him...haiz...no point saying all these nw..my heart juz HAD to b broken...all i ever wanted was my first true love...but dat didn't turn out right...frm d strt i knew he wasn't sincere but hey...i juz wanted to live in denial...constantly telling myself he was sincere...it was my choice n decision sooo...i am to blame la at d end of d day(argh!! i heard d i swear sg...all for one todae...emo seyy)...if anyone shld take d blame...im nt ashamed to say i'd b responsible for it...i pay d price for d things i do...dats mie i guess....ok2..4 mre days to e3 syng b'dae...nurul MADE her a b'dae pwessie!!!urghhh!!no fair!!
!tiARa!//*...u were nvr dere for me
Sunday, February 04, 2007
todae was super tiring...overslept n was late to e3's place...went for swimming..onli mdm, e3 n miiee!! den izz,irbah n insyi stayed at home...we tolked bout stuffs along d way..n den i found out..dzul wanted my number dunnoe for wad..LOL....soo ask e3 to gif him la..den msg him bout stuffs again...i guess d whole world noes huh...n one seems to b agreeable wif my conditon/state nw..LOL...its nt like its my will or smth...mayb its for d better....ok2...cut d crap...n when we reached...we saw paman walking(e3's uncle)...n den i realised dat haney had swimming on suns too..hahakz..cute la dier in her sonic pyjamas..soo tembam n chubby!!hahakz...den had a difficult time swimming..aiyoh...SOOO many ppl sey...e3 n i kept getting hit n kicked...i had 2 on d arm...saikit giler seyy...i spent most of my time in d water giving ppl stares..hehex...den pakcik ishak say gt timing~!!!i was like...ohno!!slack ah nie...mesti nyer...ironically e3 n i improved tremendously!!! alhamdullillah...shooo happieee...hahakz... den after swimming..paman n bibik ayu blanjer e3 n me burger king!!!best nyer..aper lagik...bedal ahk...kat west mall pulak tu!!hehex...over d moon doks!!hehex...den go jade la...c2 bbik ayu place...stlyo ahk!! condo...lawar...den hanis humairah ikut...alalala...cute nyer dier...wif her hard rock cafe baju n her pink skirt...hahakz..oklah..pplz plz..no vulgarities in my tagboard ok...later i chillie2 ur mulut-s den u noe ahk...plz understand me...im in no position to say anythin nw...i mean..im fine if u swear at me n stuff but wad if he reads it??...understand ehk...plz n thnk u..dats all folks...rani, d quiz thingy...i'd do it in d nxt post okayss...nytez!!
~tiAra~!!
Saturday, February 03, 2007
heya!!..okays2..first n for most, i would like to congratulate all marchers for doing JSS proud!! u guyz rawk la...all u guyz didn't disappoint d skool at all!! im soo elated dat u guyz gt champion for d west district!! hahakz...dun stp rawking peeps..
umm..well..thnx kak laila for all dat u've done...giving me d moral support n all..i mean..i dun feel soo bad after all..im glad u understand d position im in..well, im glad u've moved on..i shldn't moan n groan or even shed tears over it, instead i shld b supportive as a pal to pal...i hope things go smoothly between u n her..=D i noe she's much better off than me..jngn sia2 kan dier aites...im sure she's one in a million n all...soo..cherish her...treasure her...don gif up on her kays!! well..u haf my back..soo..here's a lil' smth e3 n i thot of dis afternoon while watching d squats falling in n out of their barisan-s...hehex...
ku tkperlu akan belas kasihanmu..
ku tk menagih akan simpatimu
ku tk inginkan air matamu
ku tk mahu dahagakan kasih dan sayangmu buat kali kedua
namun begitu hanya satu pintaku dari dirimu wahai teman,
jangan sesekali mengulangi langkah itu...jngn sesekali melukakan hatinya seperti mana yng telah kau lakukan padaku
i juz don't love euu no more..
well..its realli2 difficult for me to move on rite now..especially after knowing dat he has..haha..im juz taken aback...its soo fast ..didn't xpect it to b like DAT fast..but i noe, as a person..i must acknowledge d fact dat he has moved on n dat he doesn't need me animre..im quite certain he's gt nth to lose..it hurts la..for d second time someone juz goes like..."i juz don love u no mre"...gt sng to complement sme mre..hahakz..i guess dats fate la..im kinda jinx sey...i've always been rejected..gotta live wif dat...i juz haf to receive fate in vewy2 opened arms n of course an opened heart!!..i determine my destiny...i'll still b happy without u by my side 24/7 i think...nah..i don think...i noe i will!! yea!! im a strng babe!!hehex...oh yah..d RI commander todae handsome seyy..he smile at me sme mre..after noticing me..swit sey..lah..tk kan jumper lagik pun..sorwee la ehk 3..aku da chope dulu..hehex..mummy ask me to tell aj to join red cross so dat can ask for his number n name...HAHA!!!(imagine aj in red cross uni...Bapok2Kedi sia!!hahakz..B2K get it..HAHA! sorwee la aj ehk too funnie ahk)...okla2..nurul chnge her valentine shucks!!!urghhh! dis time he's canadian...wad d heck u nurl!!~~nYteZ~yaz tk baik..tuduh ti ader orng lain when i don't den u..da ader orng lain bukannyer nk share...gini ker kawan???...eleh..tau ahk dier lawar..nk keep low profile konon...kawan sendiri pun tk nk introduce seyy...
enug cwapping peeps!!!
~tiArA*//~_craig david's i juz don't love u noe mre sooo...OUCH sey!!hahakz..tapi i like d sng lah..hahakz..
Thursday, February 01, 2007
heya!!! ouhfoh...todae was an ok2 day in skool...nt dat fun tho' coz i didn't eat during recess n i almost didn't make it in time for skool....hai yoh...ti2..aper la... btw...i gt my sci n math test results...soo crappy sey...very disappointing...truly dispicable..ultimately atrocious...ahhh! i slack wedi...haiz...nxt week is my common test tau...if u guyz still cannot visualise my results...let me enlighten u...haiz... highest for math is 7/10 n i gt 6/10....mr sim go put upper sec questions inside...lolx...but it was actuali common sense question la...den i gt 1 careless mestake sey...den for sci...rabeks!! 14/20.....uhhh!!! haiz....i am soo pissed off sey...well... i have been distracted for d first mnth due to some disturbing incidences subsequently re-occuring...irritating ones i shld say.... i don wan it to b like.ummp ahh...wad if d door to my heart closes to forgive u sey....dat'll b way dangerous....no doubt....juz to clarify....elyas....i don have another someone...u cannot comment on me like dat...haiz....y don u share wif me bout ur new her den....haiz...pa per la yaz...as long as u're happie im fine...valentines dis yr would suck...i seriously thot i could spend my FIRST VALENTINES DAY....but it ain't comin thru...wackerwoche's (xcluding me...will)...e3's spending it wif "froggies"...hehex..sorwee no offence ehk..nuruL wif dat hrt-trobing...charming...sooo cute n handsome mexican guy!!! urghhh!!! dey all gt a partner each...i guess i'd b spending it wif my bear la...my bear won't disappoint me like all u ppl do...i love peace..d love of my life...i c him like every split second...he nvr fails to brighten up my day each moment wif dat sweeeet smiling cute chubby smile...i love u..
~tiARa~
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